Chelsea quized me.

1. What was the greatest change about you that happened as a reslt of livingin Germany?

I think the biggest change was the realization that no one would ever be there for me. I know that sounds incredibly bitter and depressing but I mean that in a completely practical, real world sense, as opposed to the no-one-will-love-me way that its usually interpreted. And so it was liberating and really when I would say I came of age. If someone was to make one of those crappy movies about me, it would be set during that time of my life. In fact, I’ve kind of done that by basing a play on my time there. I can pin point the moment that happened. I managed to get myself incredibly lost in a part of Berlin I had never been in before. It was the first time I had been out alone really, and they were doing repairs on the subway but my german wasn’t good enough to hear the announcement that everyone needed to get off and get on a bus. So I'm wandering around this sort of abandoned area of town, looking for something familiar, or a taxi or anything. But I told myself I couldn’t cry because that would just make me a target. And so I sucked it in and I found a bus stop that would take me to another bus stop I knew. And I survived thanks to no one but me. And I made it home.

2. Do you think your writing will be permanently altered in some way after spending this time in Africa?

I don’t know. I don’t know if my time here is changing me or just reinforcing things already in my writing: my fascination with human rights, the paradoxes of language etc. We’ll see.

3. Top three favourite bands/artists and why.

EVIL QUESTION.
Portishead: because I just discovered them.
Lark: because I just saw them live.
The Dandy Warhol’s: for absolutely no good reason.

4. If you could be commissioned by one person to write a play somehow based on their life, who would it be [not necessarily a biographical play, but influenced by]?

by commissioned I assume you mean someone alive.
I would love to write a play on Wesley Clark and his experiences in the war in Bosnia. By the same token I think Rumsfeld would be fascinating.

5. What are you afraid of?
Not making the most of my life. Dark alleyways at night. The world ending before I see all of it. The international Jewish conspiracy. Never finding love. Not being a great writer. Spiders.

I felt like maybe I should update this.

Things:
1. I am not going to buy any food for the rest of this month aside from restocking milk and bread. I am freaking out about money and I don’t actually know how to make myself live on a budget. Yesterday, after realizing how much money I have spent and resolving to spend less I WENT OUT to a comedy show and to dinner. Why? Because I am stupid. BUT I made a resolution on Thursday (which is the big going out night) that I would not buy myself even one drink. And I managed to get quite nicely drunk with out spending any of my own money. I realize this makes me sound trashy. But it was only two drinks.
2. Having an American accent seems to be the solution to all my problems over here. Like not being able to afford to buy myself beer.
3. But I am trying to drink less.
4. I have developed a cough that will not go away. TB? Perhaps.
5. One of the international students has the “in the mood for love” sound track on her itunes. Heaven.
6. This not buying any new food means I am actually going to have to eat that instant oatmeal I bought. UGH. I don’t know why I bought it.