Neil Gaiman Obsession Continues

“I Google You” Music and Lyrics by Neil Gaiman, Performed by Amanda Palmer.

I saw her perform this last Monday? The Monday before? down at the Spiegeltent.

I Google you
late at night when I don’t know what to do
I find photos
you’ve forgotten
you were in
put up by your friends

I Google you
when the day is done and everything is through
I read your journal
that you kept
that month in France
I’ve watched you dance

And I’m pleased your name is practically unique
it’s only you and
a would-be PhD in Chesapeake
who writes papers on
the structure of the sun
I’ve read each one

I know that I
should let you fade
but there’s that box
and there’s your name
somehow it never makes the pain
grow less or fade or disappear
I think that I should save my soul and
I should crawl back in my hole
But it’s too easy just to fold
and type your name again
I fear
I google you
Whenever I’m alone and feeling blue
And each scrap of information
That I gather
says you’ve got somebody new
And it really shouldn’t matter
ought to blow up my computer
but instead….
I google you

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I’m reading the last sandman book like a page a day. I really don’t want to say goodbye to Dream of the endless. I know him better than some of my friends at this point. I think when I finish it I’m going to go through a mourning process similar to a breakup. The second to last book “the kindly ones” kicked my ass emotionally. I’m very involved. It’s probably not healthy.

Jesse and I are thinking as going as Dream and his sister Death for Halloween.